Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Friday, April 22, 2011

...work...

 ...usually the only time I "get ready"...


 ...almost always consists of this...

 ...my view every day...

...has been for four years now.

...thinking out loud...

What’s the point of lying? Why lie if you’re gonna forget the lie a few days later and try to make up another one to cover up your first story. Some people “lie to kick it”… why? Are you seriously that insecure with your life that you have to lie about anything and everything so people will like you? Let’s be real. I don’t have an amazing life and I obviously haven’t been a lot of places but if you’re gonna start telling stories that just so happen to relate to everything that’s being brought up… you are seriously something else. Yea people will think you’re cool but when they start to catch on… how cool do you think you’ll be then?! Exactly. Not so cool anymore. The lies just build up and you get so use to it that you actually start to believe your lies. I think that actually makes you.... what do you call it.... Oh, a Patheological Liar! Yup. That's it. The best ones are the "One Uppers" and "Know It Alls". Gotta love em. They must be related some how. If you have something I want, I'll tell you "I've always wanted one" not tell you, "I had one, a BIGGER one but I let my sister borrow it so that's why I don't have it anymore." If you don't have it, YOU DON'T HAVE IT! Holy hell! Or the ones that think you know nothing about anything. "Did you know that if your kids BLAH, BLAH, BLAH..." or "Did you know that you and your husband should BLAH BLAH BLAH..." Are you kidding me?! We've been together for ten years and I have THREE kids thank you! I'm all about the extra advice and occasional criticism but when it comes from a person who just has that 'I KNOW MORE THAN YOU' attitude or comes off as I'm not "doing my job right"... Uh, you better think again about coming at me like that.

Have you ever noticed that when some rational situation or decision comes up that not only involves yourself but also  involves everyone else in your life… you can always think “Even if I did this they would still be mad at me but I’ll still get away with it because they won’t stay mad at me forever.” Seriously though. It’s true. If that’s the case, why even consult your family or friends? Why even think twice about it. Just do it. Right? WRONG. How freakin inconsiderate is that?!? Are you serious? What kind of IDIOT ever thinks its okay to make a decision without consulting your family or loved one or whoever else it effects!?! What’s the point of building a relationship with someone who will think that way? Obviously they’re not thinking of the consequences or who it effects – just what’s in front of them at that very moment which is usually something worldly. Something of no value to them really. Something that is most likely temporary. The only thing that comes in to play is “I”: “But I really wanna do this... It’ll mean so much to ME… I’ve always wanted to…Just because I want to…” I would probably categorize this personality as a “People Pleaser” too since most situations are influenced or created by a third party. Then they start thinking that everyone else is the bad guy. Then, we lose. But then what happens? They do it… get their few hours of fun in… and then… right back home to the ones who were actually effected by it. By that point, their loved ones have given up. They think that everything they’ve done meant nothing because you chose to go against them. Because you “thought” that it was okay because they’re always gonna love you no matter what. Although that is true… they don’t think about how that really hurt that person inside. How betrayed they felt. How used and worthless your decision made them feel. And on top of all of that… they start to think what did I do wrong? What am I doing wrong that would make someone that I love the most hurt me so bad? Am I not enough? What is it? But what does that person do? Nothing. Says the same lines, sheds a few tears and you’re right back to where you started. Your temporary happy ever after. And then… a few months later… déjà vu… only it’s not. It really happened. Why? Because you let it. This makes me think about how I treated my parents when I was growing up. Things weren’t too extreme but I bet my parents felt this way every time I did something that wasn’t "Mom and Dad Approved" and now I think that maybe I should’ve thought twice about how my decisions effected them and my siblings. I mean, I came out okay I guess and I'm not perfect but still… it’s not fun. You live and your learn, right? But see, this could happen to anyone in any situation. Whether it's with your best friend, your spouse, your sister, anyone. And NO I'm not having marital issues... holy cow... I've just been seeing a lot of this lately and I'm kind of over it. So I blogged about it. I do realize that it may sound like I'm on a rampage or something but everyone has their days right?! And this day, was THEE day.

*Don't take this post the wrong way or any way for that matter... and if you do then... well, I guess you have a new subject to blog about. I'm just stating the obvious... well, what I think is. And if you don't agree, by all means... feel free to leave your thoughts... a Reader's Digest version if you will :)

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