...I'm Obivously Superwoman...

When I say I'm Superwoman I'm referring to what my kids think I am.

I mean most days I probably am. 

But I'm sure I have more days when I'm not.

I can handle a lot of things...I think...

But some things I just can't.

But I'm definitely one of those people that keep things inside...

I thought everyone was like that but apparently I'm pretty good at it.

I've always been able to hold my own...

More like keep it together I should say.

But these last few years have been a challenge.

I've had my breaking points more often than not.

My kids keep me on my toes but at the same time test me daily.

I know they're my biggest blessings but I sometimes think 

the Lord doesn't realize how much I can actually handle.

But at the end of the day I realize that this is my purpose in life.

If there's anything I'm good it it's being a dayum good mother.

Yes I'm patting myself on the back...judge me.

But ask me on a bad day and I'd probably say otherwise.

I've had two babies in less than 12 months. 

Yup, I'm that girl.

I would always make fun of my friends or cousins that had babies so close together.

Like why would you put yourself through that.

Oh I don't know let's try it shall we?!

And here we are.

Ha.

That's what I get. 

But seriously, I wanted to stab my husband when it happened. 

My pregnancy was so bad with my fourth that I couldn't even leave my bed.

I'd try to go from my bed to the bathroom and would feel like death.

That lasted for almost six months.

Yea...why anyone would wanna get pregnant again after that I do not know.

But of course it paid off in the end...

It paid off to fix my hair that day cuz that's all I had going for me that night.

Oh and those sweet cheeks...not my husbands, the baby.

He was perfect.

Okay side note: Again, this one was my hardest pregnancy and although he was perfectly healthy in every way he was not my easiest baby. He was a colic baby. And yes everyone has their own issues some more serious than others and I realize that mine isn't even unbearable but to each his own so just feel sorry for me okay?! After the rough pregnancy came the sleepless nights - literally, every hour of a crying baby - nursing fails, hold-me-every-second-of-life for two months type of crying. I kept telling myself that I was good and didn't need anymore kids. Three was perfect...four was pushing it. 

The day I found out I was pregnant again I about died. Twice.

I cried all morning in my room.

Didn't even tell my husband until later that night.

He had the biggest smile on his face when he saw the test.

Before he could even turn around I was already crying again.

Fast forward eleven months and here I am...

Raising five beautiful children.

Most days I don't fix my hair or fill my eyebrows in...

Which are days I cross my fingers none of the neighbors show up...

Some days I don't even get out of my pajamas...

One time a neighbor did show up and I didn't even answer the door cuz I was in a lava lava...

But they think Mom can do anything and everything...

No matter what I'm wearing or what I look like...

Except somedays Shawnee's like Really Mom?!

Everyone who knows Shawnee knows what I have to deal with...

I don't know how my mom did it with all six of us kids...

Three of which were all a year apart...

I don't know how people do it with twins either...

Mine are Irish twins and if they were born at the same time...

I could not even...

But I know they are my biggest blessings. 

They have taught me how to love more than I've ever loved before.

They show me how easy it can be to forgive...

How simple things can be if I just let it...

They've taught me how to live a little and enjoy everything...

But they've also showed me what's like to not have a voice for three months too...

Yea, I'm one of those moms...

But to them I'm still perfect...

And honestly Superwoman is the only thing that comes to mind 

When I ask myself what my kids think I am...

So this is what the purpose of my blog is...

Explain my life as some people would say...

Complain about my husband...

Passively so it doesn't seem like I'm actually complaining about him but I am...

Vent about my days where I lose it and I'm a witch all day...

Because seriously being perfect every day is just too much work...

And just random stuff I guess... 

I don't even know if people read blogs anymore but I feel like this is my only option that will let me get it out and not judge me or tell what I already know I need to do.

So...here's to motherhood and being Superwoman.

...new beginnings...

A TON has happened since my last blog what, four months ago probably?! Um, yea... does anyone ever REALLY stay up to date with a blog nowadays though, really. I mean, with Facebook and Instagram you pretty much know what everyone's doing every waking minute of the day. Gotta love technology!

If I were to go into detail about the few events that have happened these last few weeks this blog would never end. I can't even begin to explain how happy and grateful I am at this very moment.

Things happened so slow yet so fast this last year. One week my husband is living out of a hotel room working his butt off for a job that he's always dreamed of his entire life. The next, I'm flying to Minnesota to visit and he surprises me with a home for our little family. Of course we're not making it permanent ((Utah will ALWAYS be our home)) but we're gonna make the most of this journey TOGETHER.

The separation was a good growing experience for our family but I would never wish that style of living on anyone. Of course everyone has their own reasons so don't get me wrong but for me... it was the hardest thing. 

Mainly because my husband was miles away, working harder than he ever has in his entire life, basically starting to live the life he's always dreamed of... and we weren't there to share it with him. 

Yea the kids and I were happy, healthy, taken care of while he was there... but it just wasn't the same. 

He had no one to come home to. He didn't have a house full of noisy kids and son to play xbox with. He didn't have a wife to come home to or his daughters around to spoil.

Anyone who knows my husband KNOWS that he's all about family. About our kids, our siblings, our parents. They mean everything to him. To be so close to what you've been working towards all these years and have no one to come home to at the end of the day wasn't part of the dream. We've gone a whole year apart and I'm so thankful that it was a GREAT year. We're just ready to be together again and start a new beginning in Minnesota with the kids and reap these blessings together. 

The NFL life is definitely different from what people only see on Sundays. I'm so thankful for a hard working husband who has truly taught me that you can DREAM BIG and MAKE it happen. 

Whatever happens, happens.  Things aren't always set in stone in this life we chose but we will live it together as a family and take it one day at a time. 

...right now...

Right now...

I have a million and one things going through my head and I don't even know why.

Well, I do but not really.

You know that feeling you get when you're antsy and worried at the same time?!

Like you're getting ready to do something but then you feel like you're forgetting something...

Like you're about to do something amazing...

But at the same time you're not.

Almost like you're getting ready for a BIG day... filled with nothing..

Like there's a huge weight lifted off my shoulders...

But there's a pit still sitting at the bottom of my stomach.

Does that make sense?!

I don't know how to explain it... but that was kind of my explanation.

Yes, that's how my brain works.

Which is why I can never really explain anything.

I know it's pretty sad.

But I'm still functional!

You wouldn't even be able to tell if you were to look at me.

Or can you?!

That'd be pretty funny if you could... then I'd just look LOST all the time.

Long story short...the separation paid off.

All the hours, days, weeks, months spent away from each other has made it worth every second.

My husband made the Vikings roster.

We never talk about it unless it's brought up by an inquiring mind (just because)

but I figured since I blogged before about writing down our experiences through the process

I might as well share this now, right?!

We're rookies still new to "this life" but one things for sure...

We know the majority of it will be spent the same way it has been since April...

Apart.

But here's where my brain starts to lose it.

Anyone who knows my husband and I knows that we're attached at the hip.

Literally.

It's always been that way.

Tangi & Matt. Matt & Tangi.

You ask for one, you get both.

That's just the way it's always been...

and because we're cool like that.

Not really, but really.

So you can imagine what all this time apart has done to us.

Nothing has changed really, except for the fact that he stays in everyday after work...

((we can officially say that football is WORK. It still amazes me that someone can do what they LOVE - like playing football - and call it a J.O.B. and get paid for it. Amazing how that works))

and I pretty much stay within my boundaries...

Home.Work.Golds.Home.Work.

((and yes I said GOLDS because I've been milking our rip-off plan of $65 a month for the both of us...oh and cuz I wanna workout too I guess. Everyone's doing it))

Yup - it's pretty amazing.

The problem...might not even be a problem to some people.

And it really isn't a "problem" it's just...

There.

Yea, it's not a problem.

The NFL is a very cut-throat business.

Anything can happen.

What HAS happened is one of our greatest blessings...

But what's TO COME is what is holding us back.

We want our family to be together.

We wanna come home at the end of the day and have someone to come home to.

We wanna enjoy being with our children.

We wanna reap the joys of parenthood together.

But we know that right now...

We can't.

We have to think about what's best for our family.

Our kids.

Our marriage.

Our future.

Everything.

Which would mean...

We'll still be living apart for the next few months.

Of course we wish things could be easier...doesn't everyone?!

What I do know...is that I wouldn't trade any of this for the world.

It's been a long road leading up to this point and there's nothing that will stop us.

This post is not a Debbie Downer post... I'm simply just typing what's on my mind.

Am I sad? Mad? Angry?

HECK NO!

I'm SO EXCITED for what lies ahead, you have NO.I.DEA.

The mixed feelings and all that other craziness is just...life.

When I stress, I stress hard. Why? I have no idea.

But when I really think about it... why stress?!

It's not gonna do me any good.

I need to keep my head up and STAY positive.

I've been trying to live this way for a while and I really am seeing a difference in just everything.

My husband reminds me every morning...

to make it a GREAT and POSITIVE day no matter what.

You would think I would need to be the one telling him that

Since his day is more stressful than mine I'm sure...

But that's what I love about him.

I honestly would not be the person I am today without him.

So for now...

I'm just gonna keep being AMAZING and just go with it.

...change it up or just being me...

So... I've been following this blog and I sometimes find myself reading for hours... I mean really, not stalkerish at all but I can't help it. I can't remember how I came across it but I'm so glad I did. Anyway, the reason I bring it up is because I've come up with a few ideas, scenarios, thoughts, just random stuff that I wanna start blogging about. The first thing I loved about her blog is that she's so honest.

When I first started  blogging I was having a hard time with it because I just didn't know what to blog about. There's the everyday updates, venting posts, pictures, etc. I was told that I blog the same way I talk which is good I guess, right?! But I feel like the posts are just the same'o thing. I mean really. I don't know if people just don't read blogs anymore or what but I feel like it's really just because my blogs are boring - and NO I'm not looking for compliments or any of that crap, I'm just being honest. Plus with all the APPS we have now...Facebook, Instagram, Facebook, Instagram (the Asiata's are NOT a fan of TWITTER but can you tell what we ARE a fan of?!)...who blogs now days anyway right?! WRONG!! I LOVE reading blogs...I actually like writing them too but I just never seem to end up POSTING them. I still have like fifty editing posts just sitting, waiting to be posted. But who cares anyway right?!

So anyway...I'm gonna just run with it. If you like it, great. If you don't, suck it. Read that blog though...trust me, she's worth following. She has an AMAZING weight loss story and the rest of her posts are just hilarious! I would totally do Q&A if I had enough followers to do something like that. Ha!

...something in the water...

Over two months of no blogging?! That's pretty lame. Not that anything too exciting has happened lately but I really have been meaning to blog... a few times actually but I just never ended up doing it. I know, I'm freak'in awesome.

So the latest news... pretty much everyone I know is pregnant. Okay I'm being dramatic... not everyone, just a few people that I know. But still, it's pretty much everyone!! LOL My aunt just had a baby boy last week. She hasn't updated her blog in a while but you can read some of her stories here. He was two weeks early so he made it to his own baby shower. He is just too adorable.

A couple weeks ago, we found out that my cousin Leta (who is practically my sister who's marrying my brother in law in a week so she'll technically be a sister-in-law too I guess) is expecting! They're having a baby girl in July. Matt's birthday is in July so we're hoping she comes on his birthday. Oh, and he's convinced they're gonna name her Matty... ummm, yea. That was the FIRST exciting baby news we got.

Then just two days ago, we found out that my younger sister is expecting too!! Two babies in a few months, can you believe it?!?!?! She's due in November... and guess who's birthday is in November!!! LOL Yup! We're hoping she (yes, I'm calling her baby a SHE because I'm hoping it's a girl) comes on the 23rd so she can be born on thee greatest day of the year... my day of birth of course! LOL. Oh, and maybe, just maybe they'll name her after ME! Hahahaha. Wishful thinking!

Oh, it doesn't stop there!! Yesterday I found out that my other cousin and his wife are expecting too! (By this time I was DYING from knowing how many people are pregnant right now) Really?!?!? There HAS TO BE something in the water right?!?! Oh, but of course before I come on to blog, I was reading my dashboard and another friend of mine is pregnant too!!

Okay seriously... it's too much. I don't know if I've mentioned this in my previous blogs but I've been extremely baby hungry... like for the past few months. But Matt and I talked about it and we agreed that we should wait a few more months... maybe another year. Our baby will be 4 this year... she's practically 8 (no really, she swears she is)!! Nana asked Santa for a baby this past Christmas and Fatboy says he wants a brother. All three of them go nuts when they're around babies. Every month I try to convince myself that I just might be pregnant because I've gained a bit of weight... then that time of the month comes and I'm like FRRRIIIICCKKK well there goes that excuse for weight gain!

But when we found out about the first two pregnancies (my cousin and my sister), I was telling Matt... maybe this is "our baby"... the new addition to our family and a baby for us, but not for us you know?! Like the Lord knows we're not ready yet so he sent our family a baby to fill that little baby craving I'm having. But last week, my brother who's on his mission wrote and was telling me that I should have another baby. At first it caught me off guard because I never told him about my baby cravings or anything else. But I just wrote him and told him about our feelings and our plan and just left it at that. Well, now that everyone else is having a baby this year... I now feel the opposite. Like maybe it might be a good time for us to get pregnant. I know, it's crazy. I don't know what I'm thinking really.

As much as I want to fill that baby craving of mine... I know it'll happen when the time is right. I mean, we are kinda preventing pregnancy right now so I don't know why I keep thinking I am when I know I can't be.  Until that day comes, we're gonna enjoy what's to come and reap EVERY SECOND with these new additions. It's so exciting because now my kids will actually have cousins and not be the only grandkids within our immediate family. For six years my kids have been the only grandkids on both mine and Matt's side. After this year... they'll have two other cousins they'll share their grandparents with.

I would say our year is off to a pretty good start don't you think?!

...2012...

So...hopefully this year is better than last. Our year started off pretty well in 2011... maybe the first three months of it. Things just kinda got rough as the year went on. I'm not complaining though...what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. And so here I am...stronger. Or at least I think I am.

This year we're hoping and praying for something good...something better. But...like I've said before...things happen for a reason so whatever happens, happens. We tend to take the long way when doing things in life...but we won't get into that because I'm pretty sure this will end up being a novel if I do.

So far, a lot has happened within the first twenty-two days of the new year...

We celebrated New Year's Eve at our ward dinner/dance. The kids had so much fun! We really love our new ward. We're hoping for a calling soon. Is that weird?! LOL 

Thanks to a few great friends/mentors Matt and I were able to go to the LAKERS game when they played the Utah Jazz here in Salt Lake. This guy was smiling from ear to ear ALL.DAY. Like really. He  LOVES the Lakers...for as long as I can remember. It was so fun! We had some great seats too! We tried to get Kobe's attention after the game...yup, 'cuz we're cool like that! But...nothing happened. Haha.

On January 14th, my little sister got married. Yup, MARRIED! Doesn't she look gorgeous?!? My mom and I threw her a little bridal shower the week before. It was perfect. I'm pretty good... I mean, WE... we're pretty good. Haha. We had tons of family and friends there to help celebrate her special day. I was so happy for her. It's still hard to believe how grown up she and the rest of my siblings are getting. Like, really. I'm so happy for her and all that's to come. I wish her nothing but the best for this new chapter in her life. I kinda feel like we've grown a lot closer than before. Which is a good thing. I wasn't the best sister growing up but now that I'm older, I feel like these are the times when I actually need a sister and need to be a sister, you know? Does that sound a bit crazy?! Regardless, I'm excited for what the new year will bring her.

On January 22nd... Ioana-Fualole Tangiofakihinano Ku'uleialoha Atiga-Asiata turned seven. SEVEN!! I can't believe how old she's getting. We definitely had a fun-filled weekend for her. Her last birthday, we had a sleepover with about eight girls. I vowed never to do that again. But this year, she asked to do it again. OMG was all that came to mind. But I figured, since she and her friends are a bit older, it wouldn't be so bad. So, sleepover it was. We had about fourteen kids over on Friday night. Yes, fourteen. But because I have thee most awesome family EVER...everything was easy breezy. The girls had tons of fun! We did make-up, hair, nails, games, movies...even a little camp out for them in our livingroom. My mom even came over the next morning and made a heavy breakfast for everyone! The party was suppose to end around noon on Saturday morning...ummm...I think the house finally emptied out at around 8 that night! As noisy as it was on those two days...Matt and I were just happy knowing that Nana had a great time with some of her closest friends and family. Oh, and yes that's her Dad in those pictures playing make-up with the girls. They all raided him as soon as he sat down. Blush, eye shadow, bronzer, mascara....the whole works! Not to mention, while painting his face they all were singing at the top of their lungs to Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez. Yup, so was Matt. LOL

The rest of this year...I'm praying will be better than last year. The latest news...Matt will be leaving to Minnesota again in April. He signed on with them earlier this month...another exciting day for us of course. It hasn't hit home yet because he's still around and won't leave for a few more weeks. Trust me, we're soaking up every second we can. We're hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. I've been slacking on the blog updates but I'm sure when he leaves I'll be on here every week like I was last year when he was gone.

We'll see what 2012 has in store for us. Whatever it may be, we're ready. We're getting back on track this year. Like literally, back on track. Bring it on 2012...

...our christmas...

...was PERFECT!

Happy Holidays - Love the Asiata's

...dear santa...

I've been baby hungry for about a few months now....

We can't really afford to have another baby right now...but hopefully soon when the time is right.

Nana came home from school with a letter from one of your elves...

Dear Nana,
You have been a really good girl. If you keep being such a good girl
I will talk to Santa and the other elves about the baby, the book and the ipad.
The North Pole is very busy so I will see what we can do!
 Keep being so good!
Your Friend, The Elf
Sprinkle
P.S. Make sure to leave cookies and milk for Santa!

I knew Nana wanted another baby around the house but I didn't think she'd ask you for one.

If you could get the books and the ipad that'd be AWESOME.

I'll see what I can do about the baby... or wait 'til next year.

Sincerely,

One Proud Mommy

...lately...

WORK

...busy

...crazy busy

...and more busy

But I'm not complaining I swear.

HOME

...needs major work

...or should I say a major deep clean

...pinterest makes my  house look like a dump

...been spending a lot of time at home and I love it

...christmas tree is up - since November actually - but no outside lights

...since my husband and his sister didn't wanna put them up LOL

...if my bank account let's me we'll be re-doing our house hopefully after the holidays

THE BABIES

...are pretty much not babies anymore

...who LOVE school and thinks the weekends are too long for them to be away from school

...I'm pretty sure Nana grew two feet over night

...and my son basically lives a life of a college kid

...half day of school, lunch ready, video games all day, homework not due til Friday

...the life!

...I've distinguished which kid will be giving me my greys

...she's got a little bit of my husband and A LOT of my tennage years in her

...that's just ALL BAD

...and she's ONLY THREE!!!!

...Lord help me!

...Nana is so grown up I can't believe it

...she'll be SEVEN next month

...last year we had a sleepover

...yea, we're NOT doing that again!

...Fatboy is so independent it's a little freaky

...he'll be six in April and it KILLS him that he has to wait another two years to play any kind of sports

...he LOVES to dance though

...they had their dance recital this month

...he's pretty good if you ask me!

...if you ever wanted a parrot and couldn't have one

...you'll definitely want our Shawnee around

...Mom?!? Mom?!?! Mooooommmmm?!?!

...every second

...even if we're having a conversation and I'm looking right at her

...she still feels the need to say, "Mom?!" like five times

...and if you even wanna know what happened during the day

...she'll give you details and more

...I'm pretty sure Nana and Fatboy already know NOT to do things with her around

...I tell her she's NOT a baby

...and she says, "Daddy said I'm the baby, huh Daddy?"

...yea. Nice move, Daddy!

ME & HIM

...we're surviving

...had a few ups & downs these pass few months

...who doesn't

...we're not perfect

...but we're perfect for each other

...and I wouldn't have it any other way

...eff...

...god first, family forever...

It's so crazy to think that we have a brother out on his mission. He's come a long way and definitely has an eternity of blessings awaiting him. Now that we're all grown up and just barely starting our own lives I can't help but think how close we all really are. It's so true how we don't realize what we have until it's actually gone. Of course my siblings aren't gone, but not living together or seeing each other everyday really does help me realize how much they mean to me. I never thought about it but when we first moved here my parents were always working and I basically played "mom" at home while they were gone. Thinking back on everything I did, I kinda wish I was a better example to them. I guess I did become "an example" but I wish I could've done a better job. But, regardless, I'm so blessed to have the siblings I do and I'm grateful for every single one of them. They each hold a special place in my heart and will ALWAYS be an example to me.

I'm so thankful for my parents and everything they've done to raise us and the sacrifices they made to get us where we all are today. I'm sure I was the very child that gave my parents their grays... but at least it was on their second child and they were better prepared for the next four! Just over these last few months we've all grown to appreciate each other more. With me moving 45 minutes away, my younger brother moving to Arkansas with his wife and now my other brother leaving on his mission for 2 years... I'm starting to realize that we're all just growing up and doing big things now I guess. Not a bad thing of course... just sad because we're all not together as much. I'm sure when Muka gets back he'll start his own little family and hopefully stay in Utah so we can all at least still be together. I'm sure Rob will be back after school is done but you just never know.

I can seriously say I have the best family ever. And not even just my own family, Matt's family too. Not only do I have four amazing brothers and an incredibly entertaining sister... I also have two older sisters that I never had and more brothers closer to my age. I seriously wouldn't trade them for the world. They each will never know how much they mean to me. Just to make things that much better, I have an amazing husband and three beautiful children that I can't WAIT to see grow up and be as close as the rest of us are.

Seriously. Life is just great.

...just blabbering...

I was just reading through my previous blogs and gosh was I seriously a Debbie Downer! But my weekend getaways and surprise Rihanna weekend was pretty amazing now that I'm thinking about it again. It seriously made me feel like I was a different person then... this spontaneous girl who just planned last minute trips and went without thinking. Lately, I've been... just a boring Mom I think. Sad.

You would think that having my husband home now would encourage me to blog more and at least be more happy about things. I honestly don't know why I haven't blogged since he's been home. I kinda feel bad.

Matt's been home for a few weeks now. Playing the "waiting game" again. Which you all know is the "Story of Our Lives". At least now we get to wait TOGETHER. Long story short, the NFL is literally a cut-throat business and it sucks. Matt made the practice squad in Minnesota at the end of pre-season but was later released to bring in another player. They could definitely call him back at any time so he has to be ready if/when that happens. So right now, Mr. Asiata is just patiently waiting for a call.

I have to say though... having him home seriously takes a HUGE burden off my shoulders. More so because I have him to help me with the kids and just everything. When he was gone, of course I had my family and his family but things just weren't the same. Everyone knows I hate to be a burden on others and I'll almost never ask for help unless Matt knows I'm going crazy then he'll "suggest" it to his family. When he was gone, the kids started school and my morning trips started up again like every school year. I had to get them up, ready for school, take them to school, take Shawnee to my in-laws and then make my way to work. THANK GOD I have the best boss/work place that is super flexible with my kids' schedule. But with Matt not being here, I had to do all that myself. I didn't mind of course -  I just got use to it. The first week Matt was home, I slept in, was almost late to work a few times and I just lounged around most of the time because when I got home from work everything would be done already. I felt bad at first because I would seriously find myself doing nothing while I was home. But then he'd always tell me that he wanted to make up for what he'd missed these last few months.

The kids are literally going CRAZY with him home. I'll come home and the four of them are bouncing off the couches and hanging from the ceiling... yes all FOUR of them, meaning my husband too! At night, they're STILL on crack. When he was gone, I'd lock us up in my room by 10pm and just fall asleep. Yup, again, best mother ever. Since he's been home, our house is mayhem until about 11pm then they move from the living room to the bedroom... my bed to be exact! Just when I thought I could get Shawnee to sleep in her own room too... what does he do? Invite her to sleep with us EVERY NIGHT... yea, he's killing me on that part!

...when daddy surprised them @ Hollywood after being away for two months...

But it's SO cute to see how close he is with the kids. His relationship with Nana is almost like a sibling relationship. She never takes him serious and when he gives her suggestions she just kinda looks at him like 'are you serious right now?!' it's pretty cute. He can make her laugh just by looking at her. Everyone knows she doesn't really laugh though either... it's more of a grunt with a smile. I have no idea where she got that from!

...this was on his testing day for kindergarden...

He and Fatboy have made it a ritual almost every night to play video games for about two hours before going to bed. Where they got that idea I don't know. I've been pretty good about having video games in the house though. About a year ago, if I could, I would've thrown the game out the window and tell them I didn't know what happened to it. But now, now that we have rules about game time, I don't mind it. If you see Fatboy play video games with his dad and uncles, you would think he was 12 or something. Sometimes he has to remind his uncles he's only 5... especially when they start losing.

Shawnee... she SWEARS she's the boss (still)...and having her Dad home 24/7 doesn't make it any easier. She gets away with everything and anything in our house (which you all already knew from the way I talk about her in all my other posts). Well, at least when I'm at work. But even then, if I even raise my voice at her... Matt's already covering her ears. Talk about not taking anything serious... everything that comes out of her Dad is a joke. Not once does she take him serious. And if she does... the first thing that comes out is You're not my friend Dad... then... she's all smiles cuz he gives in [insert big dummy face here].

Me... I'm loving every minute. Anything could happen today, tomorrow, next week... but all we want to do is enjoy where we are right now...being a family. I just got another promotion at work... with this position (hopefully) I won't be FB'ing my frustrations about work anymore. I've finally taken on the manager roll (that's opened up about five times since I've been here and it's only taken me four years to finally put in for it) and I'm excited and nervous all together. I told Matt I'll have to do less FB'ing and blogging (during work hours) and more of my actual work. I'm excited about it.

Matt... still makes me fall in love with him more and more every day. It's the little things that matter most you know?! I'm (kinda, sorta...okay I AM) addicted to my mocchiato drinks at work... one morning he took forever taking the kids to school and I was getting worried but I didn't wanna start blowing up his phone. I was getting a little (okay a lot) impatient but I still didn't call. Then, five minutes after my normal 'leave the house' time (which is usually my 'you're gonna get fired if you don't leave' time) he walks in with a mocchiato in hand and says "thought you could use this on your way to work". How sweet is that?! I thought it was cute. I even got to watch a football game with him. You're probably thinking that's lame but it's really not. Since forever, I've always been doing all the "watching" with our family or friends from the stands. A few weeks ago we went to watch the U rape BYU and he actually sat WITH me! It was too funny. He was on the sideline for most of the game but then he came up and sat with us for the last quarter. It was funny to see people's reactions when he walked up. It was almost like one of those movies where the head quarter back goes to the stands and kisses the four-eyed geek on the cheek... that's how I felt anyway. Matt being the geek of course. DUH.

Anyways, I think this post is long enough. If I don't stop now, I could start giving TMI. You guys don't want that ;)

...work...

A while back I posted about these new cute earrings I got and an outfit I wore to work. Since then I've taken a few pictures of my work outfits to try and get a post together to show you more work outfits. I haven't been good at keeping up with the pictures but just the other day Matt was looking through my pictures and said, "Why do you take pictures at work and I don't get any of them?!" LOL I had to explain what my plan was and then I figured I should hurry and put that blog together. So here it is.

I actually just got a management position at work so I'll be shopping for "better" work clothes soon. Hopefully this week. I was trying to talk my mom into taking me work shopping to get me a "promotion gift". That conversation didn't end the way I wanted it to. But I'm hoping I'll be able to go sometime this week.

I have the hardest time finding the right rousers. I use to just buy random ones from wherever. Then I realized that I was wasting money on them because they'd either rip at the seams (don't even say it was cuz I was gaining weight! LOL) or they'd just start to fit weird. I was told that was because I wasn't buying quality trousers. So what did I do?!?! I went to GAP. I neeeever shop there because of course it's too much for me AND the styles in there just aren't really for me. I ended up spending $120 on two pairs that I THOUGHT were really cute. Um. That's a negative because about a few weeks later I was over both of them. One of them... the seams ripped at the bottom and they were EXTRA long and annoying. The other pair, I like but they're just kinda weird around my waist. I wear it sometimes but I usually wear a blazer with it to cover most of my waist. Anyways, so I'm back to square one. Anyone have suggestions?!? Cuz I'm tired of wearing the same skirts and one pair of pants with different shirts.

If and when I do go shopping for more work outfits... I'm steering away from the pants and possibly just stick to dresses with cardigans. That's what I'm thinking right now anyway.

This is from a magazine... 

kinda what I'm going for now days...

...here's a skirt I got at H&M when I was in Vegas for Rihanna...

 ...another dress from H&M...

...we support out UTES every Friday 

so I try to work it as much as I can...

...this ones one of my favorites...

thanks to my sis Leta...

...wearing one of the pants I don't like so I took it sitting down...

it's a grey blazer and trouser with an aqua colored shirt...

...this one was when I first wore one of the expensive trousers...

it was also when I dyed my hair black and NO ONE saw it LOL

...this one is aight...the vest makes me look VERY business-like...

...this one is with a blue & black plaid skirt...

it was probably in my closet for two months until I actually wore it...

...ivory top + brownish/grey skirt...

I'm sure there are toooons of people with cuter outfits but I figured this could be fun post. I'll try to do another post with new outfits but that probably won't be for a while.

My girl Cass has a blog that I LOVE and she had a post about a week ago asking for suggestions on what to wear to my brothers farewell. You can read about it here and see the cute dresses she got. Just the look I'm going for next time I'm going shopping.

...dear janelle...

I still can't believe it. I can't even explain how I feel.

How I've been feeling since.

Non stop emotions just running through my head.

About you, your family, my family, my husband... everything.

I came into work Friday morning after my usual morning routine.

As soon as I got in, a co-worker had to break the news.

Not yours, but someone else's.

One of our collegues had just gotten a call from her brother.

His daughter had commited suicide the night before.

I think she was only 18.

It made me think of when my cousin Gary did the same thing.

I just sat there and thought about it. Eyes filling up, but not crying.

Not even ten minutes later, my sister asked if I heard the news.

"About Nancy? Yea."

"Nancy? No, Ron."

"Ron?"

"Yea...his wife passed away. Just last night."

"Ron??"

"Yea... Ron and Janelle...?"

Right when she said your name my heart dropped and sunk down to my stomach.

Janelle? Are you sure? How? The game? OMG. Ron.

I sat in my office and cried all morning.

I just couldn't hold it in.

I texted Matt right away and told him what happened.

We both couldn't believe it.

That's so sad. We actually knew her.

I seriously felt as if I had just lost my best friend.

Which of course you would laugh at because we haven't been close at all since high school.

But even in high school... we didn't spend that much time together.

I think we were close friends right around the time you started dating Ron remember?

I remember we talked for like almost two hours about your night you had after your prom date with him.

Some pretty juicy stuff if I remember right! Haha.

Remember that week we were so excited about the new crimper?

We both came to school with the same spot burnt off!

OMG that was hilarious.

The girls were tagging pictures from high school the other day.

So not the business.

You guys and your Pink Ladies... I was too cool LOL

Remember that summer you tried to help me

get on the volleyball team...

Yea, your "moms" didn't like me much. Ha!

How bout all those letters we use to write in between classes!

OMG those were the days.

Even Jenise and I would write letters too.

Even if we were in the same class together! LOL

I didn't even know you were into blogging!

I just found your blog the other day.

I think everyone knew Ron was a clown but now everyone

knows he does have a "cupcak'in" side.

I had no idea you guys waited that long to get married either!

Gosh, I guess we really did have a lot to catch up on.

Maybe if we hadn't taken our kids to Vegas for the bowlgame

that year we could've been more apart of the couples group. 

But I'm glad you met Adrian during that time.

It sounds like you guys have gotten pretty close since.

After reading everyones posts to you...

you really did hold a special place in everyones hearts.

It is definitely a sad time for a lot of us here on earth.

But we both know that you're in a much better place...

building your eternal home for you, your husband, your parents, siblings, nieces and nephews.

Sounds like you're not alone either.

I'm glad we crossed paths in this life

and I look forward to seeing you again in the next.

If you see a line of babies waiting to come down... pick one for me.

Okay don't get any ideas...

I'm not pregant now but maybe in a year or two.

But when it happens, I won't forget to ask them if they saw you :)

XoXoXo

Tangi